Fine

I hate the word fine
A softly spoken lie
As I turn my face
To hide the tears in my eyes
I hate the word fine
With a practiced laugh
As I try to forget
Where the bruises are at
I hate the word fine
Looking into her bloodshot eyes
Seeing her try not to cry
Doesn't she know
I heard everything last night?
I hate the word fine
Washing blood out of my hair
Pretending I don't care
I'M FINE!!!!
How could anyone believe me?
Didn't they see me
as my innocence faded?
As trust died
And hope became jaded

But hey
Look
I made it
Though still there are days
that bring me to my knees
Days when I'm sure
I'll never be free;
There are other days now
That make truth of old lies
Really and truly,
I'm honestly
Fine

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Shiny

People have said

They like me better

When I'm sad

Because

I'm so much

quieter

But it's okay

I understand now

I think

Dim light

is so much

easier

on weak eyes

3 sisters

She's good books

And rainy days

wild flowers

laughter and play

Hot tea and sugar

in a chipped china cup

faery tales and lullabies 

And cookies made with love

She is loud music

On Saturday night

studded black leather

and neon lights

A shot of whiskey

and a dangerous smile

The roar of a motor

Violence with style

She's scraped knees

and a pair of bright eyes

Flowing water 

and a sunny sky

A little bird

fearless in flight

Laughing all day

And dancing all night

Today

I am the voice

I hear in my head

But I've never listened 

to a word I've said

They break my spirit

But it's not the end

I pick up the pieces

And stitch them together again

Laughter springs from my lips

As tears fall from my eyes

They both tell the truth

Though I'd meant to lie

Revolt

Pain is my birthright

Sorrow is my inheritance

The children of blood and 

the children of tears

Cry out together,

"It is enough!

It is enough!

We have fought enough

We have wept enough

We lay down our swords

We will bury our children no longer

We lay down our burdens

We will build our prisons no more"

The children of gold replied,

"We stand in the high places

Where time cannot touch us

Our eyes do not see

Our ears do not hear

We live lives without pity"

And death stood at the gate.

Unraveling

I live in a world 

of daydreams and teardrops

Hoping like hell I'll be okay

Halfway between

Wishing I was someone else

and simply wishing myself away

Don't know who I am

Or who I will become

And I feel like I'm walking alone

Like even my loved ones

Are strangers to me

And there's no such place as home

And I'm falling apart

All my stitches 

unraveling 

And I fear it won't be long

Until there's no such thing

as me

The Poet as a Poem

I am a group of obscure words

Written in a timid sort of rhyme 

Said in a tiny sing song voice

Just a little out of time

My rhythm is a bit uncouth

My concept a tad undefined 

You could blame it on my youth

But it made sense in my mind

Bleeding Heart

Some have said I care

too much

Or that I love too hard

But I would rather live

with a broken, bleeding heart

than one that is hard

and shriveled up

useless

good for nothing

What shame is there

if I should err

and be a bit too loving?

But those are right

who say

that tears solve not a thing

And I cannot

save the world

with only my dreams

So I will care too much

and do the best I can

to give a little love

and lend a helping hand

to everyone who needs it

be they great or small

For there are far too many

who do not care at all

What I Have To Give

I have a voice!

I have a voice!

I can speak

I can be heard

I am not afraid

to use the power of my words

or of my art

There is power in

sincerity

Things spoken from the heart

from a loving soul

and an open mind

My words, my art, my voice

are what I have to give

humankind

Born to fly

Enough words can convince

a bird that she's a kite

So she'll let you tie her down

And forget that she can fly

with her own two wings

And she'll forget she has a voice

and a song to sing

and a life, and a choice

But by and by she'll hear her song

And find her place in the sky

For words can't hold forever

one who was born to fly



The Wanderer's Song

I may not look like much

I'm poor and small, it's true

But I know how to give, and I know how to love

Can the same be said of you?

My feet are weary and bruised

From the paths that I have walked

I have been beaten down, I have been used

I've been berated and mocked

I have known happiness and laughter

I have known pain and tears

I have known suffering and sadness

Though I've only lived a few short years

But pain has taught me compassion

Cruelty has taught me to be kind

Hatred and bigotry have taught me how to have

An open heart and an open mind

Life has taught me the worth of love

And every day I live

I learn the more I give away

The more I have to give

On loving my own

Laughter is the same in every language

Love has no colour

Kindness knows no boundaries

It touches us at our core

Hands of different colours intertwined

Is to be rejoiced, not bemoaned

We are all one people, one family

Everyone is my own

Standing up

Beautiful in ways

That they will never see

I suppose that is because

They're not looking at me

They knock down a scarecrow

A girl who is not real

But the blows aimed at her

Leave bruises I can feel

But I'm not made of straw

I have a heart and soul

So I am standing up

I am taking back control

I will be alright

I will be just fine

No one will take my joy

I won't let them steal what's mine

To my Mama

Mama, I know I'm grown

And I'm too big for this

Too old for bedtime stories

Or a goodnight kiss

I have left the nest

We're over six hundred miles apart

But even though I'm far away

I know I'm still in your heart

I know I'm big now, Mama

But if you've got the time

Could you sing to me

over the phone tonight?

You're still the one I go to

When life get's a little rough

And no matter how old I get

I'll still need my mama's love

 

 

 



Waiting

I keep waiting for the day

everything will change

The day I have an epiphany

and catch my big break

The day I find somewhere

in this world that I fit

They that my luck finally

decides to flip

The day that I find what

I've been looking for

When I don't feel like a failure,

a nothing anymore

I keep thinking it's coming

but it never does

I know I shouldn't give up

I am still young

But my feet are getting tired

and my head hangs low

I hope my day will come soon

but I just don't know

The Danger of Beauty

Beauty is a matter of opinion

Sometimes it only hides the beast inside

Behind the perfect mask of an Adonis

The worst kind of monster may hide

So strange to see an innocent life taken

By Aphrodite's lovely little hands

But many a terror has been guided

By the cruelty of beauty's commands

A Love Story

He's been hurt and she's been hurt

So the walls are firmly up

Neither wants to be alone

But neither wants to fall in love

He loses his temper

She pretend she isn't scared

She turns away

He pretends he doesn't care

Both are so blind

That neither can see

Each has exactly

What the other one needs

And just when it seems

Like they'll never figure it out

One big fight, a storm of tears

And the walls come crashing down

They love and they live

As they never have before

He's been hurt and she's been hurt

But it doesn't matter anymore

Then one day he bends his knee

And she says yes

Three months later

She wears a white dress

They promise each other

To give it all they have

They seal the vow with a kiss

And never look back

To My Sister on Her 16th Birthday

Cinna, today you turn sixteen

So, if you'll take advice from me

A bit of sisterly wisdom I'll impart

From my four extra years and my heart:

Listen to Mama, she knows most everything

Never give in to your insecurity

Boys will lie, and men will too

Don't let stupid people get to you

Keep an open mind, and an open heart

Make sure you can finish what you start

Don't be afraid to get a little crazy

After all, it runs in the family

Think before you decide to pick a fight

It's good to laugh, and it's okay to cry

When you fall down, get right back up

And always remember that you are loved

Soar

Country musick

and rock and roll

Fire in her eyes

 Musick in her soul

Laughter on her lips

And love in her heart

She starts dancing

When the sun goes down

Plays her musick

A little too loud

 Like a star she shines

Brightest in the dark

 She's learning how to fly

Her wings give her life

 She needs to be free

To live and love and dream

The chains can't hold her anymore

She'll break away and

Soar

to loved ones in distress

Life is hard

Life is rough

I understand

Times are tough

And I know

That you're really hurting

I know that

Life has got you down

The dark clouds

Are hanging around

And deep inside

You're thinking you deserve it

But, my dear, no matter what you've done

I need for you to know that you are loved

I love you

Even when you're bad

I love you

When you make me mad

I love you

When you break my heart

Even when we're both

Falling apart

I love you